The time was up
There were no more excuses
Where things went wrong
I could never fathom

3 years and I still ended up empty
Time healed nothing, at least not me
It took you less time to ghost away
The 7 years that meant so much to, apparently, only me

It stung thinking how I waited for months
For the salvation which had never come
I overestimated where I stood
In the grand scheme of things filled with nothing but your fraud

That time, I only had myself to blame
For being so naive to believe you were genuine
A part of me was a little thankful, though
To have gotten a life-lesson from a monster like you

I’d always wondered how it felt
You put the Holy Family’s name to the dirt
Named after the father, what a shame
Didn’t live up the virtues, should have dropped the game

After dragging your name through the mud you did me to
Just shame on me I had all my excuses ready for you
How I overlooked such, I had no words
Pure disappointment for allowing myself to be one of your tools

Calling you bad would be a huge understatement
Manipulative liar didn’t even begin to cover it
All those times, I never realized, I had looked the devil in the eyes
And dined in his banquet all filled with maggots and flies

Every single time, sadly, I had gone willingly
How angelic of me to have never looked beyond your buffet
Didn’t you call me an angel and then I blushed?
I let you put my wings on then you cut them off – on flight

As I was crashing towards earth all I could think was how to survive
You took a huge part of me I could never take back
You left me dry I could barely look myself in the mirror
Smart as I was, I had not been the sharpest in the drawer

I never asked for help because there had been nobody
You made me feel you were the only help I could ever need for eternity
I mustered the strength to gather all my broken pieces
As the sun set on me I bowed my head and cried for mercy

It rained mercilessly that night, the downpour never stopped
I hoped for a stranger to come to take me through the night
Somebody did but I was too damaged to tell
As the sun rose I only had my broken pieces to share

You could never put my pieces back together even if you tried
As I crawled for life when you left me in the desert without a drop of water to survive
So, when the lies and the promises were as louder and as bland
You broke me just fine, honey, you broke me just fine

I walked through life with my wounds still bleeding
Healing myself in the process only you had to blame
So look at me now the angel that you never knew
Could still point out every single piece of me I had learned to sew

Author: Mark Atong

If he is not taking advantage of his skills on full-time IT employment, he is going different places and hopefully making his mother proud. He believes writing is his passion; but it has yet to prove to pay his bills. He is a fun-loving individual who would rather stay at home reading books and catch-up on episodes of TV shows.

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